Main ek divorcee nahi hoon.

Lekin sach kahun, **mujhe divorce chahiye tha.**

Bahut baar aisa laga ki bas… ab aur nahi. Ab is rishte mein rehna mere liye possible nahi hai. Bahut kuch saha, bahut kuch samjha, bahut baar khud ko samjhaya ki shayad kal sab better ho jayega.

Meri shaadi ke shuru se hi sasural mein bahut si cheezein mere liye difficult rahi hain. Logon ka behaviour, baatein, expectations aur woh feeling ki main chahe jitna bhi kar loon, kabhi genuinely apni nahi ho paungi.

Aur ajeeb baat ye hai ki **aaj bhi bahut kuch badla nahi hai.**

Bas main badal gayi hoon.

Ab main emotionally sabse kaafi detach ho chuki hoon. Pehle jo baatein mujhe tod deti thi, aaj unmein se bahut si baatein mujhe affect bhi nahi karti.

Lekin iska matlab ye nahi ki sab theek hai.

Kabhi-kabhi dil mein itni khatas hoti hai ki mann karta hai sab chhodkar chali jaun. Kabhi bahut rona aata hai. Kabhi sochti hoon—*main kahan fas gayi?*

Aur phir agle hi din wahi routine.

Wahi ghar. Wahi responsibilities. Wahi bachche. Wahi life.

Shayad marriage ka sabse complicated part yahi hai.

**Kisi rishte se emotionally door ho jaana aur us rishte se practically bahar nikal jaana—dono bilkul alag cheezein hain.**

Agar main aaj ghar chhod doon, toh jaungi kahan?

Bachchon ka kya hoga?

Unki responsibility kaise sambhalungi?

Financially kaise manage karungi?

Kya main itna bada decision lene ke baad apni aur bachchon ki zindagi ko stable rakh paungi?

In sawaalon ke mere paas aaj bhi saare answers nahi hain.

Aur shayad isi wajah se, har baar main ruk gayi.

Kabhi-kabhi mujhe lagta hai ki ye **comfort zone** hai. Lekin phir main sochti hoon—comfort zone hamesha comfortable hota bhi hai kya?

Kabhi-kabhi hum kisi jagah isliye nahi rukte kyunki hum khush hain.

Hum isliye rukte hain kyunki **known pain, unknown future se kam scary lagta hai.**

Ek taraf dil hai jo kehta hai, *“bas, ab bahut ho gaya.”*

Dusri taraf practical life hai jo poochti hai, *“theek hai, lekin uske baad?”*

Aur in dono ke beech ek aurat kai saal khadi reh jaati hai.

Na poori tarah rishte mein.

Na poori tarah us rishte se bahar.

Shayad isi liye divorce sirf do logon ke beech ka legal decision nahi hota. Especially jab bachche, finances, family, social expectations aur emotional history saath judi ho.

Kabhi-kabhi **relationship khatam ho chuka hota hai, lekin life usse khatam karne ki permission nahi deti.**

Main ye nahi keh rahi ki har unhappy marriage ka solution divorce hai.

Aur na hi ye keh rahi hoon ki har aurat ko sirf “strong” bankar ghar chhod dena chahiye.

Main bas ye samajhne ki koshish kar rahi hoon ki **“enough is enough” decide karna itna easy kyun nahi hota.**

Kya sirf unhappy hona kisi rishte se nikalne ke liye enough hai?

Kya bachchon ki wajah se rukna sacrifice hai, responsibility hai, ya kabhi-kabhi fear?

Kya emotional detachment bhi ek tarah ka survival mechanism hai?

Aur sabse bada sawaal—

**Kya kisi rishte se bahar nikalne ke liye usse sirf bura hona zaroori hai, ya kabhi-kabhi sirf itna kaafi hona chahiye ki aap usmein khush nahi hain?**

Shayad mere paas in sawaalon ke answers nahi hain.

Lekin mujhe lagta hai in par baat honi chahiye.

Without judging the woman who leaves.

And without judging the woman who stays.

Because sometimes, **staying is not weakness… and leaving is not failure.**

Kabhi-kabhi dono ke peeche ek poori kahani hoti hai, jo bahar se dikhai hi nahi deti.