Woh moment — jab pehli baar usne meri god mein aayi — main aaj bhi us pal ko words mein nahi rakh sakti.
Itna chhota. Itna cute. Itna adorable. Itna vulnerable. Aur poori tarah — sirf mera.
Mere C-section ke stitches tade hue the.
Dard tha — bohot zyada.
Par jab use feed karne ke liye baithna pada —
main baith gayi.
Woh himmat — jo mujhe khud nahi pata tha mujhme hai —
usne mujhe maa bana ke di.
Use uthana hamesha bahut carefully karna padta tha. Neeche sulana — ek art tha. Aur phir bas wait karna. Kab aankhein kholega. Kab mujhe dekhega. Kab pehchanega.
Woh mera touch pehchanta tha — par mujhe nahi. Phir bhi main usse baatein karti rehti thi. Ghanton tak. Woh na samajhta tha, na reply karta tha — par mujhe koi fark nahi padta tha.
Mujhe feel hota tha —
"Yeh sirf mera hai. Main ise is duniya mein layi. Main isse kuch bhi bol sakti hoon. Yeh hamesha mera best friend rahega."
Aur woh feeling — duniya ki kisi bhi cheez se badi thi.
Aur phir woh din aaya.
Jab usne pehli baar mujhe dekha — aur smile kiya.
Main itni excited ho gayi ki main uske saamne naachne lagi. Woh apne chhote chhote pair maarne laga. Uski woh toothless smile dekhke mujhe aur josh aata — aur main aur zyada naachti. Woh paon maarta, main naachti. Woh smile karta, main aur khush hoti.
Us ek smile mein —
mere stitches ka dard gaya.
Meri thakaan gayi.
Meri sab pareshaniyan gayi.
Bas woh tha. Aur main thi.
Aur woh moment — poori zindagi ki sabse badi khushi thi.
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Ab woh class 8 mein hai.
Thoda shy hai. Zyada bolta nahi. Teenagers ki apni duniya hoti hai — yeh toh main samajhti hoon. Par main aaj bhi usse baatein karti rehti hoon — bilkul waise hi, jaise tab karti thi jab woh reply nahi karta tha. 😄
Aur kabhi kabhi — jab woh apni room se nikal ke mere paas baith jaata hai bina kuch kahe — main samajhti hoon. Woh abhi bhi wahi chhota sa bachcha hai. Sirf thoda bada ho gaya hai.
Miss karti hoon woh din —
Jab woh pehli baar meri god mein aaya tha.
Woh nanhe haath. Woh naazuk saans. Woh pehli smile.
Is duniya mein koi bhi cheez — aur koi bhi pal — us pal se bada nahi ho sakta.
Maa hona — sabse bada tohfa hai. 🤍